who says I have to follow him around,
chase a boy that didn’t see me in the first place?
be brave in the moment,
but no woman should have to go chasing after a man,
force the queen that she is into his face
and push “forever.”
I walk away,
stare at the blank concrete
and wonder, for the millionth time,
“When will he come?”
well, I’m tired.
it is what society has fed us from the womb
It is why boys eye me from across the street
it is how biology may have made us
but no matter–
women can think, too.
“I am enough,”
is not the same as
“I am enough.”
the 14 year old girl on Instagram posting selfies
in hopes of some hot guy’s comments:
you are enough.
the sister and the daughter and the grandmother
who have seen the message passed down from generation
to generation, “When are you marrying him?”
Well, “When will you finally realize that you’re married to yourself?”
I am enough.
it’s not that I don’t want that warmth and satisfaction
of knowing I can hold one man for the rest of time
but I don’t want to chase him into doing so.
I am light,
and if I have to wait until someone not only sees it
but looks at me, straight in the eyes
and says they want to be my sun…
that’s okay, too.
June 6, 2015